Coach Aodh’s December BLOG
My Broken and Indomitable Heart,
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My Broken and Indomitable Heart
My therapist told me it’s in our hardest hours that spring forth the richest of creativity. Art teaches us this. I love the Phoenix for this. She rises on fire, burns up to nothing, through ash is reborn, grows, and rises again. Then the cycle repeats. Sound familiar? It’s to be human, there is such meaning and opportunity in our cycles of pain. Pain is fertile ground. Small answers break and leave us wide open, wet with tears and the nakedness of uncertainty. Let me open up to you like my long lost friend, for if I know anything after the last season of personal and collective heartbreak, we are very much in this together. 🙏
My beloved friends,
I send you deep and healing peace as Winter touches us, the holidays descend upon us, and the world seems to have both lost its way completely and shows glimmers of unbearable light. May you be well. May you know how blessed, sacred, gifted and you’re-the-only-you needed you are. I send you energy, confidence and fortification as you listen to your Inner Guide. May we enter into the New Year that waits for us, together. May we enter with consciousness, forgiveness (for OURSELVES and others) and hope. May we keep magic alive in every way we can - in our own heart - and from our hearts pouring magic back out to the world. Let’s paint with new colors, a higher love. I am so with you in this, up, down and sideways.
I had a winning streak, a few months of feeling unbreakable in my connection to my center…. Now if THAT isn’t an invitation for some sorta next level tests. LOL. Hi universe, yeah I am the one who painted a target on my chest and am flaunting around thinking I got there. 🤦🏻♂️ Self-deprecating jokes aside, I was brave. I took a big leap with my Making Miracles Class. The class was a blessing. my Soul sang through it. As messy and new to this kind of facilitating as I am, I was on fire by finally doing what I want to do most, speaking and teaching in group settings. In order to have actually shown up each session? Well, I had to tell my participants I had stage fright. They were incredibly supportive! Haha. To even get through the door? I had to face off with my protective ego. I had to confront- and am still dealing with- all the reasons my protective ego has NOT wanted me to get fully out there in the world.
I had to wrestle with some demons this Fall, let me tell you! Oh how our biggest demons sleep when we don’t challenge them by breaking their order, getting out of our comfort zone where it counts, following our hearts, dreams even, oh my goodness. 😅
Right when all my demons came out to remind me that sleeping was not the same thing as ‘we’re done,’ the world seemed to come apart in my community and as a whole. Hamas brutally attacked Israel…. And now 11 weeks later, Israel’s retaliation and full-scale war has left over 20,000 Palestines dead. Much to my greatest dismay, America continues to be Israel’s biggest support. I am not trying to get political here, forgive me. But this has affected me greatly. I was a mess and will reflect on that in a minute.
I am grappling with how to step up as a humanitarian in the ways that are in integrity with my Soul. I know these old paradigm ways need to be stopped. As a healer, teacher and coach - here to hold space for our personal and collective evolution into consciousness- I must state my truth, war is unjustifiable. Human slaughter and genocide is unthinkable. I should not be silent just because I think it is obvious. To my greatest shock after all these centuries, clearly, it is not.
A couple weeks after Israel invaded Palestine, here in Lewiston, we suffered a mass shooter in Maine. He killed 18 innocent people. We, the tiny, little, peaceful state that didn’t think it could happen to us.
And on a more personal level, I was hit hard by the break of a profound connection and my familiar lesson I can never save another person. I am also heartbroken by a community trauma that is still unfolding. They are evicting someone who is vulnerable from my small town, apartment community. Much of the community is turning their backs on him in scorn, when what he needs is help. I have been asking myself big questions- what could have I done differently in and for this community, to have created a more healing outcome? How could I have helped my troubled friend without feeling over responsible for him or anyone else in this situation? How did I let fear stop me from doing more?
I remember a brilliant newsletter by Dannielle Laporte years back, lamenting on the irony of healing. I will put her point into my own words. Here as I moved to the sanctuary of Northern Maine back in April, where I go to sleep with the stars and where the grocery stores get quiet after 5pm, where I can drive my car on cruise control through the hills, and where I have continued my personal healing and purification work layer after layer… I have found more peace. I have become more still. And, I have never felt MORE sensitive! WTF? It feels like a strange irony… I have had to take days off to cry for others, when all I can feel is their pain. Because it is my pain too. It’s the pain of what humanity has co-created up until this point, me included, all of us. It does not feel like it, no, but this is the nature of healing. We start to experience ourselves as profoundly connected. When we take the fortress of our protective ego down, (and sometimes even DESPITE our greatest wall building efforts not to 😉🙏) our hearts let everything in, love and empathy pours out of us. There is no separation. We feel EVERYTHING. We are everything. ❤️
Take heart if life is getting to you more, if the world’s, your community’s, your family’s, your significant other’s pain feels like yours (while keeping codependency in check of course!) Take heart if your own personal pain is as about unbearable as it ever was. You are not alone. And God knows it is TOUGH! And, it can be a sign of healing. It’s a sign we are coming back into embodiment with our true selves first off, and then coming together. It’s a sign that we are rejecting the old ways of fear, separation, blame, shame, bullying, numbness, addiction (and the great atrocities these energies can lead to if left unaddressed.) We are rejecting these old ways in our own bodies. It just doesn’t feel right anymore. We can’t stand by it. It is not sustainable to go on this way. Our collective is rising, there is a Phoenix in all of us. Here is my guidance, my love, my support, and my solidarity. I’m with you in this. ❤️🔥 Aodh
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May you have a blessed and happy holidays!
PS. I have one class and event booking now, stay tuned for the complete Winter schedule in January’s Newsletter. Happy New Year! 🎉